Tag Archives: emotions
Life After Life
“If we want to enter Heaven on Earth, we need only one conscious step and one conscious breath.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh A tornado hit my elementary school when I was eight going on nine. I recall thinking, “I am going to die,” and not being okay with that whatsoever. Then it went away. The storm [...]
The wisdom of no witness.
Everything is an escape. There are the obvious tricks we all know and knowingly apply to our boredom and/or fear: drugs, alcohol, sex, TV, internet, etc. Even meditation techniques can act as an escape, a drug, a numbing agent. For the past several years, I have benefited from witnessing “the witness.” It was immensely helpful. [...]
The myth of regression.
Yesterday, I regressed. Or, I felt like I did. But how can one regress, really? Time marches on, after all. Every moment is progress. I regressed in the childlike, Freudian way. I bawled. I couldn’t hold it together. I started crying in the afternoon. I cried at work. I cried to Melissa on our walk [...]
I loved Lucy.
[Read the abridged version on Elephant Journal.] My heart is empty. Lucy was with me for nearly nine years, since my parents gave her to me when I graduated from college in May 2002. I loved her so. My constant companion died Sunday in the early evening. A surreal flurry of fleeting emotions pass through [...]
Living in The Places that Scare You
For the record, I love the Guatemalan culture. I live here. I adore traveling around this breathtakingly beautiful country. It is colorful, fascinating, complicated. I love the Spanish language, the lush gardens, the mammoth volcanoes, the diverse, kindhearted people. I do not particularly like the city. The crime, poverty, ignorance and repression in Guate are [...]
Everything’s gonna be alright.
December 24 – Everything’s OK. What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? I knew everything would be alright when I hit rock bottom and survived. When I reached my emotional breaking point (luckily in [...]
